Friday 15th January 2021

15th January 2021
I'm Tired!

Today I am tired. I really struggled to get out of bed this morning, finally managing to surface around 10am, not great for a work day. I don't know why I'm tired, I just woke up that way, today being Friday might have something to do with it, possibly, I didn't sleep very well. Anyway I'm tired and that just makes everything so much harder to manage. The less energy I have the harder it is to manage my obsessive thoughts and complusive behaviours, the anxiety that causes them or the fear of leaving the house that is the result of them. Bugger! Tired day equals hard day!

So, being a fairly sensible person, I look to see what I might be able to put off until Monday, then give myself permission to focus on the vital tasks today. I have one coaching appointment scheduled and two admin tasks to do (one of which is this journal entry). These things I can manage to do, while giving myself time and space for drinking coffee and trying not to act on my compulsions the rest of the time. There will be watching Scandal, some colouring and possibly some crochet. There will definitely be coffee, biscuits and copious amounts of tea as well as the regular meals. And there will be an early night in the hope that tomorrow is less difficult.